Still torn

To start this post out in a positive way, I will share two videos that really inspired me lately, see above (duh). You know, I'm still in no mood to blog, mainly because I cannot manage to put down my thoughts in little time and make it sound logical. Too tired, can't bother, ah, I don't know. But mainly because my opinions and thoughts are on a rollercoaster-ride these days. Cileia hun', here I go again! And yes, I will complain here, because as we've found out, many graduates in our situation aren't living perfect job experiences, even if they claim that they do. So voilà. I either need a reality check, a re-consideration of my first career moves, or just an attitude makeover. And yes, other people are off way worse, yes yes yes. But this ranting is just compared to MY situation, to MY standards and MY expectations. Nuff said. Oh, I shouldn't have justified this, but I have...just in case.

So, to give you an idea of how my thoughts can change within like an hour:

• Oh, my job is so cool, I love it!!! It was good to apply for the internship and not the Junior Position, and can totally imagine doing this for a while!
  
• Dammit, this is such crap! I didn't get a Masters Degree to do work like this! Why did I apply for an internship? I am twenty-seven and KNOW how to work! And don't you dare make me work under that that barely twenty-five year old with a Bachelors Degree if you keep me in the company, because I have worked more than him in my life and have done more in my life than he has! I've experienced enough situations like this during my studies...have I already said that I'm sick of idiots?
  

And so forth...do I sound arrogant? Ah, I'll spare you the rest. And let's hope my employer doesn't read this. But oh well, if he or she does: at least you know the truth